Since Napoleon Hill put so much emphasis on teaching the subconscious mind how to think, I worked on this as best I could.
He gives you a method: write your Definite Chief Aim, memorize it, and recite it to yourself.
This method might work for someone whose mind was at least partially receptive. But I was bifurcated, utterly. The part of me that wanted this health had to pry open the part of me that was depressed and repetitive.
So Hill’s project was out of scale. I needed something simpler. I started with the worst and briefest muttering I suffered from:
“I hate my life. I hate who I am.”
As soon as I said it — if I heard it, which was probably about half the time — I immediately replied:
“I want this life. I want to be who I am.”
This was a double-edged sword and I knew it. My subconscious would seize on the truth in it — it would relish the thought of being who I truly am. A crazy artist running around the world. And the rest of me knew that “to be who I am” meant accepting that. Embracing a return to the idealistic and adventuresome ways of my heroes.
Perhaps you find yourself in a similar conundrum.
I decided to go for the radical break, and then a complete recalibration of how I lived my life. The initial break was the hardest part.
And the rest of it is sure to stretch over years.
From my spirit’s point of view, being free, outside, was non-negotiable. And my subconscious changed it’s schtick.
Now it says, “I want to be who I am.”
And since I want that too, I become one person. This is part of the “cusp” that I’m on. I’m on the verge of becoming one person.
I can feel how powerful a position that is.
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