I honestly believe that one of the main reasons I have made the progress on my disorders that I have is that I once had a completely out-of-the-blue experience of perfect mental health. That experience showed me what was possible and proved to me that I could hold it within my own consciousness.
In those days, my commute home from work was through some of the most beautiful woodlands and vineyards of western Sonoma County. In any state of mind, it was stunning and awe inspiring. So one late one sunny afternoon I was driving home along this very familiar road.
And suddenly mental clarity blossomed within my mind. “Blossomed” is the right word, because it literally originated at my sixth chakra and radiated out into the rest of my mind. It cleared all of my obsessive thoughts repeating depressing stories. Washed them out of existence with light. All that was left was a perfect clarity of perception, which settled upon the stunning beauty of my surroundings. A perfect state of Zen mind captivated me. No thoughts, only thought itself, singular, without words or errors. This state of mind lasted for over thirty seconds.
And it changed everything. I do not believe I had an enlightenment experience or satori. I think that I experienced a moment of simple mental health. Nothing spectacular, just the high-end of what an average person can have.
Which made it ever clearer that I was at the bottom end. I could live with it, though, because I knew that there was a path up. If I could experience it for a moment, then I could experience it again.
I set about attaining this in earnest.
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